Broken

Yesterday was a day of if it could go wrong it did.  Not anything major, just a lot of little things that made for less tolerance with each additional event that unfolded. 

My Nanny is coming for a visit.  We are so excited that my Aunt Sue is bringing her up to stay for the weekend.  We will get to spend Saturday afternoon/evening with them and Sunday until they head back to Pensacola.  This will be a weekend of fun memories for sure (more to come on this). 

While Mom and I were doing a little cleaning at Nanny's my sweet Caroline was playing with a doll.  This wasn't just any doll, it was a very special doll.  My mom gave it to me for Christmas when we lived in Mobile.  She is beautiful and wears a little heirloom dress and bonnet.  She is also porcelain.  She was not a doll I ever played with very much, just looked at or pushed in my stroller.  My Nanny has kept her safe all these years for me. 

Caroline has been allowed to hold her and push her around in my old doll stroller.  She has always been so careful with her until last night.  While scrubbing the tub, I heard something smash.  It is an easily identifiable sound.  I knew exactly what had happened, but hoped I was wrong.  Caroline was not holding my doll sitting down.  She was not pushing her in the stroller.  She was bouncing around the kitchen like a hyena and smash.  The fragile porcelain foot of my doll lay broken on the floor.  Poor Austin Kieff was more upset than Caroline because he understands sentimental value.  He has the sweetest heart.

I remember another little girl who smashed something once.  I was about six years old.  We lived in a beautiful red house on Old Shell Road in Mobile.  My favorite home we lived in growing up.  It had a HUGE backyard, the layout of the house was awesome and the bathroom had ceramic tile.  My sweet mom just happened to have a brand new bottle of Oscar de la Renta Perfume on the counter.  She did not mind me wearing a little, but I was not supposed to get it myself.  Oh, the temptation was just too strong.  I could not resist.  Of course in trying to spray the perfume which was a little difficult for my small hands and the large bottle, it slipped from my grasp and hit the floor in an explosion of glass and perfume.  On the bright side, the bathroom smelled wonderful.  I know my mom was upset, but she made sure I was alright and did not have broken glass on/in me.  I keep a bottle of Oscar de la Renta perfume on my bathroom counter.  I love the way it smells, not so much on me, but in the air.  I spray it periodically just to get the scent.

Material things of this world can be broken and lost. Disappointment may follow, but am I as impacted by the broken world we live in?  Do I do my best to make an impact on this broken world?  The broken souls that I encounter each and every day?  I pray God will break my heart for the broken...and am reminded of the lyric, "Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks Yours."  Complete lyrics below...

Lyrics to Jesus, Friend Of Sinners (Casting Crowns) :

Jesus, friend of sinners, we have strayed so far away
We cut down people in your name but the sword was never ours to swing
Jesus, friend of sinners, the truth's become so hard to see
The world is on their way to You but they're tripping over me
Always looking around but never looking up I'm so double minded
A plank eyed saint with dirty hands and a heart divided

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to the world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours

Yeah...

Jesus, friend of sinners, the one who's writing in the sand
Make the righteous turn away and the stones fall from their hands
Help us to remember we are all the least of thieves
Let the memory of Your mercy bring Your people to their knees
No one knows what we're for only against when we judge the wounded
What if we put down our signs crossed over the lines and loved like You did

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours

You love every lost cause; you reach for the outcast
For the leper and the lame; they're the reason that You came
Lord I was that lost cause and I was the outcast
But you died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet

'Cause You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks Yours

And I was the lost cause and I was the outcast
Yeah...
You died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet
Jesus, friend of sinners, we have strayed so far away
We cut down people in your name but the sword was never ours to swing
Jesus, friend of sinners, the truth's become so hard to see
The world is on their way to You but they're tripping over me
Always looking around but never looking up I'm so double minded
A plank eyed saint with dirty hands and a heart divided

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to the world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours

Yeah...

Jesus, friend of sinners, the one who's writing in the sand
Make the righteous turn away and the stones fall from their hands
Help us to remember we are all the least of thieves
Let the memory of Your mercy bring Your people to their knees
No one knows what we're for only against when we judge the wounded
What if we put down our signs crossed over the lines and loved like You did

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours

You love every lost cause; you reach for the outcast
For the leper and the lame; they're the reason that You came
Lord I was that lost cause and I was the outcast
But you died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet

'Cause You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks Yours

And I was the lost cause and I was the outcast
Yeah...
You died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet